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Rai Hikari lost her dreams at 8:59 PM
Every day mom is getting more and more focused on my brother. Everything he does is great and super behaved- even when he acts like the biggest jerk. He leaves his towels in the middle of the bathroom we share. I put the towels in his room because I'm tired of picking up after him, and he has the nerve to throw the wet nasty towels into my room on top of my things that are more valuable than his life. Then, he yells and screams, while mom isn't home I might add, that I shouldn't put them in his room; I should leave them in the bathroom and tell him to do it. Did I mention that I told him twice before I actually moved them? My point exactly! On the couch as we were watching my absolute favorite show, Moonlight, he ran around screaming at the dog and being an idiot and I told mom to pause it. Somehow, that was a rude thing to say, so I was called something that I can't repeat. Lovely. So I said I was tired of living with him. No big- short, sweet, and to the point. He ran off crying and mom freaked out. He cries at everything I say, good or bad, so I didn't care. I didn't say anything I haven't said before. Then, she started pulling out the big loads of crap; she told me that I might as well not have ever gone to church because I was just so evil that it never stuck. I'm just the devil incarnate. Big self esteem booster there, eh? Can you feel the sarcasm? So I went to my room to avoid doing or saying something that I would regret. When I emerged, another melodrama came out. I put away all of my laundry and shirts are disappearing. My flute shirt, my HIM shirt, and my Paris shirt are all gone. She states, in her words, "Well then you'd better go and look for them in all the places you stuff things in your room, because if I find it first, it won't be pretty." Yeah, my room isn't the cleanest of places, but I have it SPOTLESS now. I told her that and she thought I was lying to her. I'm always a liar. Terrible, huh? Downstairs I went to avoid, again, doing something that I would regret, and here I am- posting it to more people who could care less if I lived or died.
Next item up for business: school. Or the lack there-of the public variety. So, I got accepted two weeks ago Thursday to the Missouri Academy of Science, Mathematics, and Computing. My dream program. I finish my last two years of high school while getting my Associate of Science degree. Good news: it's five and a half hours away from here. The best part: my consuasor and absolute best friend in the universe is going too. So now, with two weeks left of my public school year, I am detached from the people around me. So I've begun to notice more things going on. Things like the fact that S, not a real name but close of course, is just a jerk. She copies every bit of homework I have, tries to bum rides all the time, bums food and money from other people, and cheats at cards by throwing a hissy fit when she's about to lose or is wrong. I used to be her friend, but her bad side pulled ahead of the good side. Then my stalker is closing in more and more each day as well... He doesn't really say anything to me anymore, but he's still always there. When he does talk, it's about something stupid or telling me that I'm not fat. More on that part later.... More: X, love you hon but it has to be said, what are you going to do next year without someone to protect you and make sure you have a driving force NOT to fail classes? I mean, come on- History? Easiest class I have, and that's saying something! My lunch table is almost becoming unbearable- not because of you, X (Topic change...) At the Gold lunch table, Yellow and the other real guy at the table are in a fight right now because the other one is very homophobic and unfortunately that means he's against Yellow. The less annoying girl at the table is just angry because I work now, and so she's stopped talking to me unless she really needs something. The more annoying one- let's just say that will never change. Her and my first ex dated for a while, but she broke it off. Now they spend almost every school moment together and still she says they're just good friends.... Friends? Right, and I'm in love with the mayo sandwich at work! (For the record, I hate mayo...) The last boy-ish figure at the table isn't even worth looking at. He's just a retard who likes to knock people over. Gold lunch, last off, is also the day when this girl had a fit in line. I KNOW I didn't knock into anyone getting through the lines except for the boy I was aiming for. I KNOW 100% that I didn't; however, some freshman girl didn't think so. She comes up to me and pushes me and says, "Next time you run into someone, say excuse me!" I was shocked that someone even approached me in my black garb, but I did retaliate. I pushed her back and said, "Next time you push me- get a life." Not my best, but I'm not going to take crap. Purple lunches? Don't even get me started about them! X, again- needs to be said, is definitely the least liked at the table; okay, besides the intense hate coming from me for my stalker. She does nothing to stop this when she needs to stand up for herself. I don't take abuse and neither should she. I confess, I'm not very nice to her, but it's how I make her stronger. Now, she hardly flinches when people say things- the next step is to fight back. The random homophobe is at that lunch too, but he only causes trouble on weeks he's the most stressed. No problem with E and the twins, but my stalker is still doing the same things as before. Tiresome!
Sorry this one is just coming to light. This was written in May, but I never got around to posting it. My life hasn't really improved, there's just a little less drama in most of it. Read above this for more.