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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

I, uh, guess we're dating now? He didn't speak a word to me today, but I don't think he ever saw me... I went to talk to Allie and ask about my story, and his sister is in her first hour class, so she talked to me while I was talking to Allie. She asked if we were dating, and I told her that I hadn't talked to him yet- but I thought so. He told her that we were dating, so my day started out alright.

I obviously haven't been eating enough, so I've been lightheaded all day. Being dizzy all day makes you start to hate yourself, but not today. I was actually nice to myself all day because I've realized that for the first time since the end of third grade- I belonged somewhere. I belonged with someone.

I guess what I mean to say is that I can adore him from a distance because I don't have his phone number, and I know that he won't call me this weekend. You know what? I think I can handle it now too... I have time to restrain myself, and I know that for all purposes right now I have nothing really to worry about... I'm safe- I belong. I am at peace with myself for right now.

Rai Hikari lost her dreams at 7:10 PM

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